virtual coffee ~ tuesday march 29th

welcome to virtual coffee. i am warning you ahead, that this won´t be a happy go lucky one. if you need some picking up, i am afraid i urge you to not read any further :( 

if we were to meet for real today, i would tell you that the latest news about my friend Linda (i have blogged about her before, she is in the last stages of cancer pretty much all over her poor body at this time). i saw her about a week ago and then she was at the hospital draining some fluid from her stomach and was in kinda good spirits. but after being able to go home for a few days she went back to the hospital and got more bad news. since friday she has slept more than she is awake and the only thing that is good about that is that she is not in that much pain right now. she has had so much trouble sleeping for like ever, so it is so comforting that she gets to rest. but i am afraid that this is it, you know. 

if we were to meet for real today, i would tell you that my heart aches so much for her and her family. 

if we were to meet for real today, i would tell you that my heart almost broke in half this sunday when i learned that a friends daughter was killed in a skiing accident. the girl was the same age as my daughter and i almost lost my breath when i heard it. 

if we were to meet for real today, i would tell you that although i go on in my everyday life laughing and doing my job etc, this put a dimmer on life. you know the feeling you can get when you have a cold and have cotton around your brain? well, i have cotton around my heart.

if we were to meet for real today, i would tell you that all these bad news makes me think about life and what it means. what is most important? what can i stop doing since it is really doesn´t matter in the long run? is it ok to be thankful for what i have, when so many other can´t? i know it is, i know. 

thanks for listening. and go hug the ones you love...right now!

ps.  linda passed away this afternoon. good night ♥